Filling The Gap

This emerged from a struggle to start a project due to the fear of beginning. I was prompted by a short piece of writing by Ira Glass that attributes this fear to a gap between a person’s current output and their taste – a common occurrence for creative people. I wanted to produce something that addressed the fears talked about in this piece, the sentiment of which has stuck with me throughout much of my degree.

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There are issues, for me at least, in knowing that for the foreseeable future I will not be completely happy with my work overall. Hell, I don’t think anyone is ever truly fully happy with their work and the key I know is to grind through. To work to the best of your present ability. But I still find myself facing disappointment in myself that I’m not living up to a standard. If I don’t deal with this a shutdown slowly begins and I’m paralysed by feelings of inadequacy.

Looking back it has become obvious that the most productive way that I deal with these feelings is creative procrastination. I attempt to do things as differently from my ‘real’ design work in the hopes that exploring a polar opposite will jump start something. In the past I wouldn’t refer to this procrastinating as important- but it is. It serves a purpose. Just because it doesn’t answer a university brief doesn’t make it any less ‘real’. Some of it might seem silly or dysfunctional but it’s filling the gap. It’s by-product of a struggle to work out what exactly I’m doing in relation to whatever it is I want to do. This publication documented the filler.